[28 Jan 2004|01:00pm] [ mood | trying ] [ music | amy's music--some jazz song ] Jordan goes reports to the MTC right now. At 1:00 Wednesday January 28th, 2004. That's it. For 2 years that's it. He didn't call last night after he was set apart, which is ok. The last words we said were "ok see ya". ha. I haven't cried today...yet. Which is good for me. Really good and surprising. Seeing how long I can keep it up. I even let my self look at my screen saver slide show of all of the pictures of us. I Stapled my ski lift pass to my bulletin board too. I haven't worn make up for 2 days. It's kinda nice. You can rub your eye with out fear...and cry. I showed what I wrote last night in here to Jana and Jami. First Jami wrote read it and then read it outloud to Sunshine. Jami cried. Jana came in after I was asleep and kissed my head and told me good night. I'm trying to be strong and I know it's ok to cry but I've got to keep living my life. Today I got a lot done. I only have 8 questions left on my Chem study guide and I finished reading the Spanish poems and wrote one of my own. It's not so great, but oh well what to do? They gave us a format. Other wise I'd try harder to express what I really feel. Yesterday I asked my mom if someone would come visit me. She said "your period" thank you mother...and how true you are. I'm still so sore from snowboarding it's hard to get in my tall bed when my knees hurt or put on my coat. I sent Jordan his first letter yesterday so it will get to him today. First day and first letter. Hope he likes it. =) Welp that's all. I'm trying I'm trying. 1 comment|post comment

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